Long story, but I feel I need to talk about it, and be honest with someone other than myself:
When I graduated high school, I weighed over 300 lbs. 19-21 were good years to me healthwise, eventually I got down to 170, when my mother (meaning the best) saw me and said I looked like I was sick. At 6'4" I felt thin, I felt healthy, but at that age it kind of crushed my self-esteem, quickly I jumped back up to 220. Over the last 9-ish years I have found myself flattened out around 250, but I am tired of it. I am tired of feeling like the 'big guy' at work, I am tired of not having the same energy I used to. I have had spurts of trying to get healthier, I tried keto, I tried OMAD, I tried just counting calories, and while all of those worked a small amount, I would eventually get to a day where my depression hit me unusually hard, or I was just physically exhausted at the end of a long shift, and I would break, I would hit up some fast food, feel really hungry and eat a ridiculous amount of greasy food. It makes me feel like a failure, it makes me feel like I don't really have a shot at a sustainable, healthier me.
I come to all of you, where I have been lurking for awhile trying to find advice. I don't have a lot of fridge/freezer space so I feel like meal prep is tough, and I don't have a microwave (partially out of necessity, partially out of some weird mental reasons).
I just want to be healthy... not even skinny, or buff, or anything like that, I just want to be healthy.
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