I’m obsessed with food and it makes my life a living hell. It’s all I think about, and I just want it to stop.

I’ve struggled with anorexia in the past, but now I’m at a normal weight. I started working out and I gained a good amount of muscle. I’m currently 120lbs and 5’2. I just want to lose 10 pounds because I store fat in my stomach and I want to slim that down.

All I think about is food. When I eat a meal I’m already thinking about my next one or dessert. And I regret every. Single. Thing. I. Eat. But I can’t NOT eat. I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

I wish I had self control around food. I’m extremely self conscious and I’ve always hated my body. I know it’s selfish to say this at 120lbs but when I look in the mirror I just feel like sobbing. I don’t know what to do anymore. I feel trapped inside of my own brain. I wish I could stop obsessing over food and eat like a normal person so I can healthily lose weight.

Has anyone else suffered with this in the past? Does this have a name? Do I have another eating disorder? I just want someone to tell me how I can stop feeling like this all the time.

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