[I apologize for this being long. I don't really know where else to go. I'm on mobile as well, so I apologize for any formatting or grammar mistakes.]
I have been trying to lose weight for about 4.5 years now, and I keep falling off. I started at the age of 17, during my junior year of High School, after looking down and realizing I didn't like what I saw in the mirror. I set a lose goal at 160, the middle of the healthy range for someone my size. At my heaviest, I weighed 221. I got myself down into the 210s by eating better breakfasts and riding my bike to school whenever I could.
I plateaued there for about a year, until my senior year of high school when I became severely depressed and suicidal after a rough time relating to friends and I girl I liked. During that time, I was convinced my weight had something to do with it all, but I couldn't bring myself to do anything. My weight rose again. It took a herculean effort, but after I graduated, I discovered CICO and that summer, I hit the magical 100's. Then I plateaued there too, for about a year and a half as I worked my way through freshman year of high school and into my sophomore year.
During the spring semester my sophomore year, my dad got engaged and set their wedding for that summer. I told myself I would reach 160 in time for the wedding. I worked crazy hard, basically eating the same thing every day, and when I left for the wedding, I weighted 169.
People were commenting on my weight, at the wedding, at work, even some of my high school friends saw pictures on social media and were commenting on it. I was really happy with were I was at.
I let myself relax for the trip and the wedding, and then that spilled over into the week after I got back, and then the beginning of school, until the end last summer, when I stepped on the scene and weighed 198. I had started going to the gym last January, but I didnt really see any improvements. I hated my self. I stopped going to the gym. People stopped commenting, some people even commented on the fact that I was seemed to be gaining weight again.
I decided I had to start again in August. I hit 180 in November and have plateaued again, hovering around there for the past few months. I stared going to they gym again about a month ago and while my arms look nice, I haven't seen any other improvements. My roommates just seem to brush me off when I ask for their help to make better choices, my family does the same. Friends seem to scoff when I talk about losing weight, saying I don't need to when I am still classified as overweight.
I can't seem to stop plateauing. I try to buy healthy foods, only to eat food from work or go out because its easier. What do I do? I'm so sick of feeling like I'm stuck and not going anywhere. What do you do when you plateau? How do you get yourself out of it? I just dont know what to do. How do you get motivated beyond when you're looking in the mirror?
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