I really need help

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I’m 5’7” and 361.2 pounds, 29 years old.

I’ve been fat since I was a toddler. I’ve always handled my emotions by eating. It didn’t matter if I was happy, sad, bored, pissed off, I would immediately eat something to feel better.

Over the years I’ve tried things but my binge eating and emotional dependency on food has always won in the end.

I can’t last with any eating program for more than a few days before I’m stuffing my face over something or other.

I’ve gone through several therapists, two literally looked me in the eyes and said they couldn’t help me with my food issues. Everything they ever tried didn’t work.

I’ve been on medications for anxiety and depression.

Nothing works.

I bought the Intuitive Eating book a couple weeks ago as a last ditch effort to tackle this from a different angle, but at the end of the day it isn’t helping either.

I have medical issues. Funny enough my last therapist diagnosed me with hypochondria and said I was terrified my weight would lead to an early death - and I am.

I’m depressed. I’m a failure. Not a single thing has helped me. I feel unfixable and I can’t stand another minute of it.

This is a cry for help. I don’t know what to do anymore. Sometimes I feel like I’ve messed up too much and I’m just meant to be this way

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