hi im a 175lb, 5'1, almost 20y/o female. i was a chubby ~125lbs in high school and gained so much weight after meeting my current fiancé. i was 190-something lbs at my highest weight last year.
i live with his family who are lovely but have a really bad mindset around food and haven't allowed me to diet the last couple years that i've been living here. i'm sick of the fat culture. even my coworkers discourage me and tell me i dont need to lose weight, but i know full well that i am obese.
before lockdown my bmi was 40, and i was going to the gym regularly, then i let myself go waiting for it to end. last month i decided it won't be anytime soon so i've cut alcohol and caffiene, and i usually eat either one meal a day or a couple of small ones. i dont feel hungry 80% of the time, and i could do with drinking more water.
the thing is - how am i supposed to be eating 1200 calories? i eat about 600 a day. anything more feels like so much. i want to do this the healthy way but im scared that i dont even need that many calories if im doing ok at 600. i work 2 days a week, fully on my feet. i do regular housework but otherwise i am sitting. i'm not allowed to go for a run, bike, or shopping alone. i usually stay up late at night to get some exercise while everyone is asleep so that they don't start criticising.
im happy with the little amount that ive lost but i have so so much more to go. the thing is i have no idea what im doing. i have no plan, im just trying to eat less. but i dont know if its too little, or too much. if anyone has advice id greatly appreciate it, or at least something to help me look in any direction lol.
ps. 2 days ago, my partner noticed i can now sit on his lap without killing him and he's become supportive of me to keep going, yay!
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