But then, my boyfriend takes me to meet his cousins while they’re hot tubbing. which requires me to hot tub. in a bathing suit. so I put on my (full coverage) bathing suit, get in and am immediately aware of every movement my body makes. the way i’m sitting. is my chin too far down? gotta stretch it up. they can’t know I have a double chin (spoiler: they know I have a double chin.) his cousins (both female) have brought their boyfriends and I wished he’d warned me. I think about how thin his cousins are. gorgeous. the way their bathing suits look so good on their thin bodies. how handsome the boyfriends are. how athletic the boyfriends are. how they must be calling me his ‘fat girlfriend’ in their heads. how pathetic it is that he has to have a fat girlfriend. my boyfriend puts his arm around me and I feel embarrassed for him. I feel guilty for being his girlfriend. like he deserves better than me. it’s been thirty seconds since I entered the hot tub and I am already convinced several people hate me based on the size of my body.
So yeah, I do need to lose weight. Rinse and repeat.
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