Hi, sorry about grammar and such, English isn't my first language.
So I'm currently 5'2 and 182 lbs. I've been chubby almost all my life due to my bio mother's horrid eating habits and then me continuing them. When I was 11 and was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I remember she would always give me chocolate after therapy/ school. Or when I was sad. Or happy. Or nervous. Or sick.
I moved out from her at 15 and at 16 I developed an eating disorder. I was diagnosed with anorexic obsessive thoughts (translated to English) and went down 55lbs to 121lbs at my skinniest.
Then I developed bulimia and then binge eating. Been trying to lose weight the past years (am 18 now) without going into the anorexic patterns but still lose. Problem is that I really struggle with binge eating but also have no clue how to food.
On a "good" day I eat 400-1200 calories. The second I go above 800 I struggle not to binge.
I really really need some advice on how to deal with binging as the reason I gained weight again was because if I binged. If I learn to stop that I'll have a way easier time maintain my weight .
Also: live on my own now, in a shared housing thing with other students but have regular contact with my dad and stepmum who says they wants to help me (esp during Christmas) but is really scared to trigger the anorexic stuff again. Same with my boyfriend.
Sorry for the hella long post
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