I feel totally undesirable at times and I can't look at myself in the mirror without a baseline level of shame. But it doesn't have to be that way. I don't have to be sore and in pain constantly. I can lose this weight. I can fucking do it. It may only be 76 pounds. But it feels like it will be a world of difference when I lose it. It may take awhile. But it will be fucking done. I'm tired of this weight in my shoulders. My goal for this final month of the year and for 2020 and really just my life is going to be that I stop with my old habits and shoot for better health. I wanna feel good in my body again. I want to be confident enough to ask out someone I'm interested in without shame and without feeling like I'm not good enough. And even when I do lose the weight it may not change shit about how I feel but I also am going to therapy. And the kicker is I'm only 16, some of you will be saying I shouldn't really worry so much but damn it I've been obese since I was 6 and I wanna break the cycle. I don't wanna end up like my grandpa with type 2 diabetes and cirrhosis of the liver. If you saw me in real life you wouldn't believe I'm 276 pounds, I'm 6'2 and I'm just built to be a large man which Is why my goal weight is only about 200 which is also due to the fact that I do weightlifting. Today is the day, Im ready for this Rollercoaster. I got myself into this mess and it's time to get out of it no matter how long it takes or how hard it is. This is it.
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