For context: this time last year I weighed 132lb (60kg) and now I weigh about 115lb (52kg). I've had an ED in the past and was outpatient for a few months with the hospital but I wanted to lose weight, then maintain it, without trying to ruin my relationship with food.
My sister has come home from the holidays and just said 'eat properly tomorrow' as I didn't eat much around her today. I said I did eat properly and that I didn't eat as much today as I had a big breakfast and she mentioned how my stepdad told her I don't eat much. I just said 'I don't care' as I didn't know how to respond, and she went away.
I was confused because I am eating enough but I wasn't hungry as i'd had a lot for breakfast and didn't fancy anything later. I also ate just under my maintenance calories today (1400 calories). My boyfriend and I went for breakfast and I had about 800 calories, so most of the day I ate snacks as didn't want to go over my maintenance.
When I was back with my sister, we went out and got hot chocolate (300 calories) and I had a fishcake and vegetables for dinner (250 calories). Apparently I didn't eat enough at dinner as I had my fishcake without chips, but I wasn't hungry enough for chips (by chips I mean fries as i'm British lol). She really will not and wouldn't leave the chips thing alone. If I don't want sides with my meal I *dont* have to have them and people don't seem to understand that.
I also had a 90 calorie yoghurt making my total 1400 calories which I think is a normal amount. I don't exercise much, I am 5'4 and female. I feel really bad when people bring up my past or comment on how much or how little I am eating but I don't want to 1. overeat as I don't want to be the weight I was before, and 2. I don't want people to tell me what I should be eating as it's really off putting. Being at home for the holidays with my sister especially is hard as she is constantly watching what I eat (I guess she's worried I may develop an ED again but why does it matter what I eat?)
My family are very routine in the way that you *have* to eat breakfast, lunch AND dinner which annoys me because if you eat a lot for one meal you aren't always hungry later on?
I'm really stressed as I know this holiday will mean I have to eat a lot in front of others, which not only makes me worried i'm gonna go way over my calorie limit every day for 2 weeks but also my body physically hurts if I eat too much or eat a lot of processed food.
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