I've lost 280 pounds in about 2.5 years.I went from 465 in the ICU with DKA to 180ish and walking every day. I admit I had surgery to help (lost 130 before and 150 after). It's been a very weird experience and I was wondering if anyone else had the same recurring thoughts:
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losing this weight may be one of my greatest feats in life but I find it exceedingly embarrassing to talk about.leading Me to downplay or straight deny it often.
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people asking for weight loss advice is also very awkward and I often have nothing to say.
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I still often think of myself as the fat kid that couldn't get off the couch to run 50 feet.
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the thought of gaining 10 pounds terrifies me as I still often have the 465 mentality of never being able to lose it.
-my relationship with food may always be strange as I have weird habits that helped me lose the weight that I don't think others will understand.
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I wonder how "normal" people maintain their diet and wonder why I often can't do the same things.
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my addiction to counting calories and weighing portions can seem very weird to my family and friends.
-along with this meal planning is a daily/hourly thought.
-"unplanned" quick meals like are a stresser (I'll wait to eat) and can often lead to tension with others that don't understand why I can't just eat something quick.
Given all this there are still too many positives to list. The short list includes becoming a very....very good baker in an attempt to manage my relationship with sweets and the normal health turnaround that comes with losing another fat guy worth of weight. I have a bunch more I could share but I'll leave it for later. Thanks for reading my holiday musing on why I'm now a much healthier nutcase. Happy holidays everyone.
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