Too Depressed to Stick to It

This is long, but I don't know what to do anymore and I just want to put it in words somewhere.

I'm not overweight, but I'm 5 kilograms over the weight that I'm comfortable with, and gaining weight, which also contributes to my depression.

Here's the problem. I have aspergers and I'm a very picky eater and I cannot force myself to cook, at all. It's really bad. I'm such a picky eater that I can only tolerate SOME of meat products if someone else cooked them and I don't see the process (and they don't look like meat as much) and sometimes eggs. Most milk products make me gag. I used to force myself to eat eggs and cook that, but lately even the thought of them makes me wanna throw up. I can't even eat yogurts anymore. My tolerance of foods is just getting worse and worse.

Before the pandemic I would regularly eat either mushroom soup or Caesars salad at this specific Cafe that is far from me but next to the gym where I went (gyms are now closed, as well as cafes). There's no other Caesar salad that I can tolerate, I've tried.

From the delivery options I have to my house I can't force myself to eat anything so what do I end up doing!? For the past couple of months I've eaten nothing but cheese fries + onion rings from Wendy's and snacks.

I'm at the end of the rope here I don't know what to do. I'm not even sure if it's aspergers or depression contributing to my tolerance being off.

Is there anything that can help my appetite? It feels like I don't have appetite, I just kinda eat out of habit.

I know I need therapy, and I'm looking into that. I just wanted to also hear if someone's gone through something similar.

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