i am typing this after chatting with someone who told me "it's just calories in, calories out...burn more than you eat." rather than tell him i know this and that this is not the issue, i just gave up on the conversation.
i have enormous trouble controlling what i eat. i'll get the urge down here in my room, and as i walk upstairs i'll sometimes think "well i'll just do the dishes or i'll just see what's in the fridge"...any kind of rationalization like that. and as i get the food out and put it in my mouth, i'll think "fuck it...it's not worth it to lose weight. i don't want to live a life of deprivation. i don't even want to live that much longer anyway", etc. my body just does what it wants...goes and gets what it wants...and my thoughts spin some narrative on top of it.
i'm dangerously obese and i've recently passed into solid middle age. things don't look good. i've lost weight in the past, but i was younger, and it always came back. and each time i lost weight i lost less. i've seen studies and articles that say permanent weight loss is basically impossible if you've been fat for a long time, which i have -- about half my life now.
in some ways i want to give up because it really is an uphill battle. but, i don't want to be sick with diabetes, metabolic disease, or whatever. i have a stepfather to care for and i can't do that if i'm sick.
how do i stop myself from eating delicious things?
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