I'm tired of being like this. basically 200 lbs. I don't know when I got so big. IF has not been going well. haven't been fasting. bought workout clothes, a fitbit, socks, and shoes. I'm tired of writing about what I want to do. I'm tired of writing about where I want to be, and I just want to be there already. I do know why this is difficult for me. because I'm not trying. because I don't care enough and just want results without the effort. when do I ever put all of myself into anything? never, and yes my mental health does affect that but I know it's me. and yes, I know my meds affect weight but again I know it's me. I wish I could change this shit with the blink of an eye but I can't fuck. I just need to do it. forced myself. make Sohla's recipes. (that actually look really good). force yourself to eat vegetables. learn to cook in the process, which is fun. insulin resistance ain't no joke. shit takes work and I need to be serious about it. stop fucking eating all the time. take some sort of pride or care at all about yourself. fuck.
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