I'm not sure why I'm even writing this right now because it's silly to complain about but I just needed to vent, and slightly rant a little bit. Basically, I've lost about 20 pounds at age 20, my starting weight use to be 140+ at 5'4. Which was my highest weight in a long time, depression hit me hard after losing a bunch of friends and so, I was emotionally eating. It got so bad to the point where I couldn't even get out of bed, and when I did, I couldn't even get up a flight of stairs without getting winded. People would take videos of me, making fun of me for being at a much thicker size and not being able to climb and post it on social media.
I finally turn my life around and lost a lot of the weight, I'm down in my mid 120's now, I've never weighed this much since elementary school and first years of High School, so I'm pretty stoked and beyond happy about it, I'm even fitting in clothes I'd never thought I'd be able to wear and proud and so happy about it, but then my mood takes a turn when people I haven't seen in a while see me, and then instantly they comment on all the weight I loss.
When I tell them and the x amount, they tell me it's good enough, I said, I got a goal of 115, or even 118 lb, they get bothered and say that's too skinny, especially for my height, and I tell them it's fine. They then tell me stories about anorexia and experiences and how hard it is to recover, and I explain well, I'm eating this amount of calories, and don't have any issues with food, if I could I'd eat all day then compare me to other girls, despite only seeing me briefly.
Then there are times where people will flat out call me anorexic to my face. First time wearing a cut sleeveless shirt in my life, came home, my sister instantly says I'm anorexic. Which makes no sense, cause I got a lot of fat on my arms, and belly and thighs still, and I was around 131 lb around that period of time. She's gained a lot of weight lately, but makes comments all the time, or says my butt is flat.
Then I get comments like, "your body is weird" like... When I'm at a larger size, people make fun of me, call me big, etc, but now when I'm looking skinnier, I'm apparently anorexic, high cheek bones, so my face will look hollow, and I got a weird body? I know it shouldn't bother me but it does, like I never feel good enough or successful and I find it slightly offensive towards people who actually struggle with eating disorders by just labeling me so.
I also have such large shoulders with weird slightly high traps, so I'm trying to get around 118 cause I just for once in my life want to actually look good, and FEEL much more dainty and feminine like my petite sister instead of feeling bad about myself. It just sucks, the comments are such a slap in the face.
Anyways, rant/vent over. Anyone else had to deal with something similar?
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