I’ve been strict with diet and exercise for 25 straight days.
I went cold turkey on all sugary drinks, treats, and minimised carbs in a single day. Denied ordering in at least eight times with housemates, haven’t had any alcohol, and binned everything that wasn’t veggies.
My overall goal was just to FEEL better, and I do.
I have lost 4kgs (8.8lbs, according to google,) which I am proud of and I certainly feel physically, even if I can’t quite see the results yet.
But having been on and off the diet wagon all my life, I was ultimately scared of giving up, like I have countless times before.
Today, I woke up flat and miserable. No idea why - I think it’s probably a combination of not leaving the house, general boredom, my two workouts yesterday, and low sugar?
Anyway. I gave myself permission to feel better.
I had some chocolate, a cuppa tea, some popcorn, and ordered myself a burger. I still didn’t get a sugary drink - they were the worst craving I had and I don’t trust myself THAT much - but everything else was so freakin good. I watched a movie, had a nap with my dog, did a face mask.
I was worried that if I indulged midday, it would end up something similar for dinner, and then whelp, I’d better start again on Monday... which is a week away...
But the world didn’t stop spinning. I didn’t spontaneously shovel handfuls of pure sugar into my face. I feel great. Full, but great. I’m still gonna get my gym time up (just later in the day,) and I’m still gonna have my cous cous and veggies for dinner. I have popcorn and chocolate left over and I have no overwhelming urge to eat it until it’s gone. Something I wouldn’t have ever done just a handful of months ago.
I just needed a little extra today, and I could stop without feeling guilty or hateful of myself. I no longer feel like I’m just gonna write the rest of the week off because of a couple pick-me-up snacks. It feels like I can breathe a little easier knowing that I’m in a place where temptations happen and I can indulge a little, then proceed with new, hard earned habits.
I literally thought this wasn’t a possible way of life for me. So I guess the reason I decided to post is so that when I need to I can look back on this and understand how far I’ve come.
Hope you have as good a day as I have!
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