I tried to practice calorie counting when I was 17-18 and went too low, and often made really bad nutritional choices in order to have what I actually wanted to eat while staying at 1200-ish. (Which is not a bad thing for some people, but I want to be actually healthy; I’m an actress and have to have a certain standard of fitness/health to work in the industry 🙄).
I’ve been working for a long time to fix my relationship with food (binge eating, never liked fruits/veggies growing up because of autism and struggles with textures etc so now I really struggle to eat them as an adult, don’t measure out proper portions so even when I do eat healthy I eat way too much).
I recently got my ‘push’ back to start living healthier in general, and part of that is losing weight. BUT, I first want to eat healthier in general and create healthy habits before I add on the mental strain of trying to count calories (I have terrible anxiety and it’s super hard for me to focus on something like that without hyperfixating and obsessing).
Every time my mom and I talk (which is not terribly often) all she wants to talk about is why I haven’t lost any weight yet and why I don’t care about my health and my appearance. I wanted to spend a couple weeks really focusing on making healthy choices a part of my everyday life, before I start reducing calories. I do care about my health and my appearance, but I also know what’ hasn’t worked for me in the past and the behaviours I need to avoid so I don’t spiral and just fall off the wagon again for even longer.
I don’t even know what I am hoping to gain from posting here; but I just called to chat and catch up with my mother and we spent 45 minutes discussing my body and what she thinks of it and what she wishes I was like. I’m just tired of my body being the only thing she wants to discuss with her daughter who she hasn’t seen in months. Why not discuss our lives? Express concern with my health, sure, that’s what it started as; but at this point it’s more her just being angry that she hasn’t seen visible changes in my body yet.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/q3o7pu/my_mom_keeps_asking_when_im_going_to_lose_weight/
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