Like 80% of all my issues from the past 10 years were because I gained a lot of weight. I really hate that it took me this long to realize and admit it.
I was a college athlete and engaged to my college girlfriend. But right after college, like a lot of my friends actually... transitioning from a very active lifestyle to a sedentary one was.... difficult.
I used to eat maybe 4000-5000 calories a day because of how much I trained.
But... after starting a desk job and completely not working out... along with keeping the same diet... I ballooned up about 70 lbs in a year. I literally went from 5'10" ~185 to ~255. My fiancee told me several times I needed to watch my diet and get active. I pretty much just brushed it off with "i dont have time!"
Fast forward another year, I had ballooned up to 285 lbs... My fiancee broke it off with me.
This really messed me up... and I ended up gaining another 20 lbs, to 305..
Ever since then... I've been completely unable to get a date... It used to be easy in college... but girls didn't even wanna look my way. I made so many "friends" over the past 10 years. Like... I'm happy people still wanted to be friends... but I literally have not been on a date or had sex in 10 years.
And this just made me sadder and more frustrated.
Finally, during CoVID... one day... I don't know why... things suddenly just clicked. I saw myself in the mirror and just thought "what.. the... fuck... did.. you.. do.. to... yourself". I don't know if I had ever seen myself in the mirror like that but... I finally did and everything just suddenly hit me at once. THIS is why you haven't dated... why you haven't had sex... why your fiancee left you... why you've been depressed...
This was back in May 2020. I was 305 at 5'10".
First, I stopped with the late night snacks. I stopped eating 100% after 8pm. No food.
Second, I cut out all the sodas. This is the first thing any obese person should cut and it'll do a lot of good.
Third.. I ate everything I always ate... just the same, except I would eat half of it. I usually ordered 6 hot dogs for lunch... but now I would just get 3. Same with all my other meals.
I dropped 20 lbs by end of summer... so around... September 2020. I was sitting at around 285.
I went back to the gym after 10 years... and tried to do the C25K program. Failed completely. Running even 2 minutes hurt my shin SO SO SO BAD. Damn shin splints...
So I quit doing that. It was too painful.
I decided to hit the pool instead.
Every morning, I jumped in the pool and swam for an hour. Every morning.
and WOW... swimming REALLY REALLY WORKS. I had zero pain... and after 3 months, I dropped 40 lbs.
I'm sitting at around 245 now.
I started cutting more food from my meals because swimming made me lose my appetite.... (which was what happened in college, so that wasn't new). I also replaced a meal with a green/fruit shake.
The next 25 lbs I lost took a while.... Jan until now, I only lost 20 lbs. Over 10 months...
I'm sitting at 220 lbs now.. and I need to drop another 30 or so for my "usual" weight.... but I've been stuck for a while now. I've been 220 for about 3 months... it hasn't moved.
But I feel so much better now. I started the C25K program again at the end of August and I'm on week 6 now.. I also found a wrestling gym and started wrestling again (what I did in college).
Hopefully... I can lose these last 30 lbs.
I'm starting to feel better about myself... but I still have zero confidence... which I also just realized recently.
When I talk to a girl, I don't even bother "hitting on" them. I always just assume they have zero interest in me. That's a mentality I hope to change soon.
I hope I can look at my body in a couple months and go like "damn, YOU LOOK GOOD"... and.. feel good about myself. I really really need to fix my self esteem and self confidence. It was another thing I started realizing recently... when I walk on the street, I don't even look up anymore... I find myself staring at the ground, and avoiding eye contact with anyone who looks at me.
What the hell did I do to myself... I feel like I wasted 10 years of my life because I COULDNT STOP EATING....
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