Hi (F23) here. Here are my beginning stats. I am 5'6 and am sitting at my highest weight at 190. I was chubby growing up but at around age 13 I started to be more active in sports. Then when got into high-school I really started to pay attention to what I ate and I started working out which I really enjoyed. Here's the thing though I struggled with body image and always always gave myself a hard time about what I looked like. I didn't think I looked good. Confidence wasn't terrible but I definitely didn't love myself the way I needed to. I had my moments though. Fast forward to age 16 I met my ex boyfriend and that whole relationship caused me to go down hill and fast. My ex was very toxic. Manipulative and abusive. He was a pretty heavy guy and we would eat McDonald's every day. We would binge eat together and really I just lost myself physically and emotionally while with him. It started getting worse we he and his family would point out my weight and his grandmother started telling me I looked better skinnier. Now let me add his whole family were extremely overweight and had no room to talk or make me feel bad about myself but it worked and I felt shitty. I spent 4 years not eating right. Not even taking care of myself at all. I fell into a really dark place. We broke up almost 3 years ago now. I am happy now and my confidence is coming back but the struggle to lose the weight is weighing on me. I've done allot of work into self love and loving who I am but my struggle with eating still stands. I binge eat and junk food and sweets just comfort me like nothing else does. But I want to fully break the toxic life I was living for so long. I want to be the woman I know I can be. I love myself and I know the potential I have is incredible. I want to prove to myself that I can be the person I know is inside of me. I just can't tap into that when this extra weight and unhealthy state of my body is weighing me down. It's been 7years I've struggled with myself and who I am. And I just want to do it so I can live a better life for myself and feel confident, sexy, and happy. I have to put in the work. I am done being miserable when I've worked so hard to just mentally get where I am today. I'm thinking of doing check ins every week here to help. Thankyou!:)
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