TL;DR: I wrote my therapist about overeating. Finally came clean.
I've been a secret overeater for a long time. Easy to hide, because I'm not overweight (actually, used to be quite underweight and am now in a "normal" range). But--I've started to pack on some pounds for a variety of reasons. One of those is: my secret overeating is finally catching up with me. I'm weight restored and now those extra calories have nowhere else to go. I can't just continue with this maladaptive coping mechanism and trust that no one will notice. More than anything--*I* notice, and I hate the way I feel and look. I don't want this to get worse.
So, I wrote my therapist tonight. I sent a note unpacking the fact that I thought this was a maladaptive coping mechanism to deal with stress, childhood trauma, and a past of food insecurity. I'm scared, because I've never told anyone that before, but the honesty also feels good. I'm hopeful that, though this won't fix everything and there'll be a hard road to fully ditching this habit and losing the weight I want to lose, I'll come out on the other side healthier. Not skinnier, but healthier. That's worth it. That's the dream.
PS--If anyone has tips on where to go from here, I'm all ears.
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