Hi! I'm 17F and halfway through my weight loss journey, which started when I was 14 years old and 80kg. Now I weigh 67kg, which makes me still overweight due to me being short (153cm or 5 feet).
I started going to the gym about 2 months ago, and it's going great overall, I can lift a bit heavier every day and according to my scale my muscle mass has gone up. But today my instructor had me do some ab workout and I wasn't able to do one of the exercises even with very little weight, when the other people in the gym could do it with 6kg weights.
Now that I've arrived home I feel so bad for the fact that I couldn't do it, and what makes it worse is that I know that it's not because I'm dumb or weak, it's because I'm fat. And it makes me unable to do shit. The instructor is always trying to "cheer me up" and saying "encouraging" stuff which makes me even more embarrased and pitied.
I'm tired of my fat being an impediment to do what I want and function as a normal person. And it's angering that the only thing I can do is work hard and hope for results to come, which they don't. Since 2019 my weight is in a plateau even though I eat at a 500 calorie deficit and the fact that nothing changes is upsetting.
Also I'm on birth control pills but apparently those can make you gain weight so I have an appointment with my gynecologist tomorrow because I want to stop taking the pills to see if they're the root of the problem. If that isn't the case, I don't know what else to do.
Also my brain is telling me to do like a hundred reps of that exercise I couldn't do every time I want to binge but idk if that's a healthy coping mechanism lol.
I know there isn't any overnight quick fix to this but god I wish there was. I just want to be normal. And I lost my whole childhood and teenage years to this obesity shit that is essentially my parent's fault because they taught me this way of eating, and then the pandemic. I'm just so angry about things.
Anyways thanks for reading my rant and I apologize for any grammar mistakes I could have made :)
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