It's been a real struggle for me these past few weeks/months even. I haven't had a proper binge since around christmas, because I had knew that I was just eating the stuff for the taste, and I didn't even want any of it. Like, I'd buy it and when I came home I sat there andbhad to almost convince myself to eat it. Very weird feeling, but somehow I couldn't stop. Went home over christmas and couldn't buy stuff, so it stopped. Now I'm back to living alone and yesterday was a terrible day. I am so stressed and I'm feeling lonely/overwhelmed/scared and like shit about my body. So idk why, the same thing started again and I went to the store and bought six donuts and a bag of curly fries (my fav). I came home, ate two of the donuts and turned on the oven, but I couldn't bring myself to do more. I had such a strong feeling of not hungry . Not full, I didn't eat much yesterday, but just absolutely not hungry, almost revolted at the thoight of food. So I put it all away and turned off the oven and I'm so glad I didn't force myself to eat it all. Now I still have it in the house and usually I want my binge food to be all gone that night so that I can start clean, but it is what it is.
Not the biggest win, because I'm still a mess and this situation is still a mess, but it's something.
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