Hi All,
I hope it’s okay for me to post this here... I am a Female Asian American who has struggled with weight and body image pretty much my whole life... sometimes I am so frustrated, I want to cry, especially recently with the pandemic and gyms being closed etc. I am posting to ask for some help and support from the group.
In a nutshell, my family is from an asian culture where the population is generally very petite - short, skinny, and overall tiny. As an Asian American, I grew up larger and have had all of the usual pressures from Asian societies about my weight, which has led me to become self conscious and very insecure about my weight.
I have gone through a journey to improve both my mental and physical health over the years. But I still struggle with this and can’t get the voices telling me I am big out of my head.
I am 5”6 and 130 lbs. By North American standards, I am slim or average. No one ever has any concerns about my weight here. But many of my friends and family are Asian... and for Asian standards I am a bit chubby.
I really want to lose 5-10 pounds, because I think I would feel more beautiful and less stressed out about this. But it’s been a huge struggle for me... I am already doing many things to try and lose weight but its just helping to maintain my weight and I am not losing which is frustrating.
For example: - I don’t drink pop or alcohol. Mostly water/tea and the occasional glass of milk or orange juice if I am really feeling it. - I exercise almost daily. Combination of walking/jogging/strength training and yoga usually 30min - 1hr each day. Minimum 3x per week but since the pandemic more like 5x or 6x per week. I also don’t exercise just to be skinny... I actually love it and love moving my body! - I try to eat mostly veggies and fruits - Recently I have been eating only 2 meals a day and doing intermittent fasting but no change in weight even after months - I am always trying to exercise when possible. Going for walks etc. If you tried to hang out with pre-pandemic me I would invite you for a walk/exercise class/hike/yoga etc.
I admit, my one vice is that I love potato chips and dessert. But I try to limit myself and control portions. I don’t want to give this up bc I feel like its my one “vice” so to speak and I don’t think I am eating them excessively. I want to be able to eat some treats once in a while and still be slim! Is that too much to ask for? I should be allowed dammit!
I am really frustrated because I feel like I am doing a lot of the “right things” but I am still not where I want to be. I feel fat. My belly has fat rolls and my torso is too wide. My shoulders are too wide and thighs too thick. And my face... too chubby. I feel like I am bursting out of my bikini when I put one on and things overflow. I don’t want to be too slim, but I want to be a little bit slimmer and Im sad all of the new efforts I am making (2 meals a day, portion control, more exercise) isn’t taking effect.
I am so frustrated I can’t sleep some nights bc I am despairing and stressed all night (like tonight).
I don’t want to be so crazy skinny like the k-pop stars but somewhere in between that and where I am now...
I know it is possible... I got to 120lbs a few years ago, I want to get back there but admittedly I was extremely depressed which led to the weight-loss so I want to get there in a healthier way.
This also isn’t just about image to me, Im not that vain, I think. its more about acceptance and feeing I have an acceptable size and not having to worry about being too large anymore.
I would appreciate any advice, suggestions, stories you’d like to share about your own journeys etc.
I just need some help, support, and understanding. I feel like I am at my wits end.
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