So i was wondering about this because well this is basically my situation and I was wondering if other people also have this.
I was slightly obese, right above that overweight line, but I was never unhealthy. Obviously I'm in my mid twenties so i might not be seeing the direct health impacts yet but the reality is, apart from an autoimmune disease im healthier than healthy.
I don't drink, I have a very low blood pressure (even at my highest weight my blood pressure wasn't above 110/60 and usually it's between 90-100), perfect blood results, active as hell (easily exercised 2h everyday) and I ate overal pretty healty. Now before some of you roll your eyes at that, I really did, my down fall? My love for chocolates and Ice cream
I'll admit i over ate on those like crazy and I stopped that habit now, but it kind of sucks not really feeling a health benefit from my life style change. (I also lost the weight super fast just by quitting all of that snacking, i barely changed anything else about my life style in terms of breakfast, lunch and dinner, I lost 40kg in 8-ish months, I'm 27 F 5ft6)
I'm not more energized cause I've always been a healthy energetic person, I can't run longer or exercise better (i was already running half marathons when obese, i biked the 15km to my school/university everyday back and forth no matter the weather).
And what's even shittier about all this, I've had 2 bad lapses of my autoimmune disease in a short time since losing the weight and not being allowed to eat my ice cream/chocolates to hearts content during those periods kinda really made me kinda sad.... (It's also the first time I had 2 lapses this soon after each other)
Like honestly I've only had negatives from losing the weight? I still don't like my body, even though I am now on the low side of the weight category for my height (BMI 19), I've started growing an aversion of going outside to go for walks cause it's -14 here right now and without that extra cushion I AM FREEZING MY ASS OFF even with like 4 layers of thermic wear on whereas i used to love walking in the snow/cold, I can't sleep as well as I used to, chairs are hella uncomfy, also im clumsy af (bump into everything) and now i feel that bump on my bone and lemme tell you that shiz hurts
I know these are stupid negatives but the thing is I can't think of a single positive, like the only minimal positive i could say is now men holler "compliments" at me on the street more but 9/10 they are unwelcome comments and I don't really care about what other people think of me. I lost the weight because I wanted to gain from it, feel healthier or something, but I feel like I gained nothing and though I lost all the weight, infact I feel like I lost part of myself, I can't just sit down anymore and eat a box of cookies when I feel like it, or a tub of ice cream and that fucking sucks... Some days I just wanna eat pizza but I feel forced to be "health concious" about it and pair it with a salad and only eat half of the pizza, I'm kinda missing being able to pig out once in a while I guess.
I know this is a fucking ramble and I'm still proud of what I achieved in a way but today a friend of mine who also lost some weight (she went from obese to overweight now) was going on and on to me about how much better she felt, and apparently she was pre diabetic before she started losing weight (I was never even close to such values) and now she's at good levels and all that stuff and she closed the convo with "well i mean with all the weight you lost I'm sure you know how it feels" and I realised I didn't, I didn't know how any of that feels, and yeah that f'ing sucks
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