I'm sorry but it's true. I'm not in other families where the parents are fat and the children are thin. I took on a lot of bad habits from my parents, which are revealing themselves more and more during quarantine. My parents were too busy to take care of me, so I was always left alone as a teenager with junk food in the kitchen. I have to undo so many unhealthy behaviors now.
I do this awful thing where my parents buy junk food and I throw the cartons away as soon as they're halfway done. This is because they don't even finish the junk food, so nowadays I throw the food out to prevent temptation.
Honestly, I don't even know how I gained all this weight. I think I stress ate like crazy the entire 2020 year. I told myself I would drop from 190 to maybe 160 or so by now, which is totally doable in my opinion, in a matter of months, but I couldn't stick to it. But that's the thing - I ate out a lot. But besides that, I don't know what exactly I was eating that sent my weight into oblivion. It's fucking stupid and isolating.
Sorry, this was just a rant I guess. I just feel so sad because I genuinely don't know what is wrong with my diet except my eating a lot. I don't know what to eat to make me feel fuller. I just get hungry at the thought of food. How was I racking 2000+ calories a day, not realizing it, and maintaining 190 pounds for an entire year?? It doesn't feel real. 190 doesn't sound like a lot compared to others but to me, it is, because I can feel it in my fat arms and legs and stomach and waist and I dunno.
[link] [comments]
source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/krkms5/its_really_hard_to_lose_weight_when_you_have/
No comments:
Post a Comment