Hi! I'm 15F and I have abusive parents. Everything I do is monitored, no electronics after 6pm etc and that led me to do the only thing I could put of boredom: Eating.
I've been trapped in this for years now, I have distinct memories of 5yo me eating cake in the middle of the night. Weirdly enough my mom is always on my back about my weight, fat shaming 24/7 etc. but she won't help me lose the weight and she keeps the house full of garbage processed food.
Now I'm 15, 5'2 and I weight around 340lbs... I have trouble walking, I barely get out of the house (not that I would be allowed anyway) I have to walk through doors sideways etc.
I am too ashamed of myself to even look in the mirror or when I shower, but everything reminds me of it, when I get invited by friends to the restaurant but I have trouble walking from the car to the place and I can't even fit in regular chairs... My grandma has an autoimmune disease and to visit her you have to take the shower thingy and wear a sort of gown and then you can go inside and talk to her...guys I can't fit in the shower or wear the gown...it might be her last months with us and I can't even talk to her because of my stupid weight.
How can I lose it without being able to get out of the house? I have access to healthy food but my mother refuses to stop buying garbage and I can't resist the urges to binge. I can try exercise but I can't sit on the floor and I can't stay standing more than a few minutes. I'm really motivated to lose the weight, I haven't been at a normal BMI since I was a toddler and I am so ready to do this even without my parents help !!!
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