Hello everyone! [CW 160lbs / 5'1" / 23F / GW 120-115lbs] (Ailments: MDD, IBS and I take birth control pills)
So... I have had many a problem trying to lose weight for many years now. The highest recording is almost 190lbs. I'm technically 5' 3/4", but still that is very heavy for my small stature. And I hadn't really realized that until I saw pictures of myself with my friends. Honestly, I looked like a thumb lol. I managed to lose 40lbs after about 2 months. Now, that was because I caught the flu, twice in a row. I was bedridden and could barely eat anything. Later down the road I went through some shit once again and I had lost another 10lbs but within a week. I couldn't stomach anything. I didn't feel hungry and anytime I had tried to put food in me I would immediately spit it out. Like my body would reject it. I was under some pretty harsh emotional stress at the time.
Now I gained back the 20lbs and this is where I am at. At the beginning of this year I did a DEXA scan and got my measurements and all that. Seeing the image was crazy. I somehow managed to gain weight but equally all over my body. It looked like I had a armor made of fat on. Although, I actually have a lot more muscle which increased my BMR from 1200 to 1265. It seems my right pelvic bone is also pushed a bit forward.
Okay, so I am trying really really hard once again. It's hard to stay motivated for many reasons. Mostly because I have gone on so many diets and nothing worked. Hell, I went to the gym 6 times a week for 3-4 hours plus 3 times a week for boxing for another 2 hours. Sometimes I spent a total of 5 hours at the gym. Sure I saw some definition forming on my butt, but in terms of size it was nothing. I only lost all this weight by either being sick or being under such high emotional stress that my body goes on a hunger strike. I don't want to do that. It's not sustainable and it's not healthy. I just want to be healthy and actually feel good in my body again.
My current plans are to eat 1200 or less calories if I have little to no exercise or under 1400 when I do heavier exercise. I try to do it everyday. And I have had pretty good momentum for the first 2 weeks. I managed to hurt my shoulder and couldn't exercise and it's been very difficult to get back into the groove of things and well, to stay motivated. I use fitness pal for tracking my calories and calories burned. I wear a smart watch to try to get my step count as accurate as possible. It's a knockoff from Amazon not an actual fitbit. I'm not sure if those are really worth it.
So any tips, tricks and experiences are so so so so appreciated. Especially from other shorties like myself. I am trying so hard to just accept that my tiny body doesn't need much to operate. So many things taste so good. Tips on how to have a better relationship with food would be awesome as well.
TLDR; I tried many many different things. Staying motivated and on track is hard and I am so short. Lost lots of weight from unhealthy things. Please halp.
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