I don't know what to do anymore.
Right now, I'm standing in at around 260lbs if my scale is right. I'm a dude, and 29. I've gained 15 pounds in a few months. I know I'm at fault. With the pandemic, it's made it really easy to order fast food, and I've been careless.
When I stepped on the scale, I was embarrassed. I already have health problems with my weight, but I don't have support. I only have my boyfriend, and we're both disabled in our own ways and it's been hard. My father... He might as well just fat shame me. And with my past, it just makes me eat more.
I am trying to implement changes, like starting by getting up more, trying to do an in place jog once in a while.
I know a lot of people swear by CICO, but knowing myself I'd become obsessed with counting numbers and it'd be extremely unhealthy.
I've tried reaching out to my doctor's, but all they want to do is bariatric surgery, or try to sell me something (which I can't afford). It feels like none of my doctor's are taking it seriously, yet they're constantly saying I need to lose weight. They don't think I know that? I've been trying.
It just feels like I'm staring at a mountain that everyone says I need to climb but won't give me the proper equipment.
And I've tried seeing dieticians, but they just tell me to go off portion sizes. Which, yeah, obviously. But it's hard when you have an eating disorder. I overeat, and at this point trying to cut back on food feels like I'm starving. Not to mention I'm CONSTANTLY hungry. Which again, my doctors pretty much ignore and blamed on one of my medications.
I don't know where to start anymore. I feel lost.
Sorry this was such a ramble.
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