I’m going for it, guys

I am 22(F), 5’9 and probably around 200lbs. I’ve been struggling with my weight for four years now, even more so with my eating habits.

I’ve lost 40lbs, gained back 20, lost 20, then gained back all 40 plus more. I’m tired of the rollercoaster and have been waiting for motivation to strike and relieve me of my depression, but I’ve realized recently that it doesn’t work like that.

I reached out to my granny today. I told her how much I’ve been struggling and how hard it is to stop going for the easy way out: fast food, cereal, ramen, etc. I told her I was done. She has a fridge she wants to get rid of, and I asked if I could have it so I’d finally have a place for meal prep. I told her how hard it was for me to do things for myself lately, and that the thought of cooking everything by myself was so intimidating.

She gave me the biggest hug.

She excitedly told me we could go grocery shopping, make everything together at her house, and make a fun day out of it.

I’m tearing up writing this. I’m so grateful to have her in my life. She is my best friend and my biggest supporter. I can’t imagine my life without this amazing woman and now she’s helping me take my first step in regaining control of my body and my life.

I’m going to be healthy again.

I’m going to eat well again.

I’m going to be able to look at myself in the mirror again and not be ashamed of what I see.

I’m going for it, and I’m not looking back.

I’m so glad this sub is here.

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