Hey everyone. I’m a 24 year old female, 5’8, 187 pounds. This is the heaviest I’ve ever been, and what can I say... it feels horrible. Two years ago, I was the lowest weight I’d ever been at 143 pounds, and I can’t believe that was the same person. I look at photos and feel an instant pang of jealousy and sadness that I ended up this way.
It feels like I’m stuck in a cycle of my weight fluctuating and I’m sick of that kind of instability. I’d love to just remain at 160 pounds as that’s the most maintainable weight for me but it feels like an uphill battle to even get there in the first place. It also doesn’t help that I’m someone who thrives off instant gratification and can be so impatient about change (not the best quality I know).
I thought of going back to starving myself. Punishing myself for letting myself get so grotesque. But I know that wouldn’t solve anything. So here I am, fed up and so desperate to get my confidence back, to wake up one day and think hey, I actually look alright today! But I just struggle to find the motivation, to err on the side of “maybe I should just accept being in a bigger body” - which I know isn’t the body I want. Please can someone give me some words of advice/wisdom/motivation? I would appreciate it SO much.
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