Back in high school, I used to have a fit body and I was eating healthy and working out daily. Now, almost 6 years later, I'm overweight, anemic, suffer from fatty liver and I despise myself.
I went through emotional trauma and eating was my only escape. Then I started gaining weight and decided to go on a diet. Well, I've been yo-yo dieting for the past 3 years, and I'm at my highest weight right now.
I I've thought about going to a nutritionist, but I can't afford it. I've tried eating healthy food with caloric deficit--the most I've lasted doing this diet is 1 week. I tried OMAD, I end up binge eating the next day. I cant stop drinking soda and coffee. Everyday I wake up with the intent of dieting, and I just get so obsessed that I have to eat and end up binge eating for days. This cycle has lasted for years and i can't fit into my clothes anymore. When I try to diet, I get so obsessively hungry and feel so weak. There isn't much I can distract myself with from this feeling.
I'm ashamed of myself, i feel like I'm a mess that cant be contained and I've been isolating myself ever since quarantine started because I know people will notice my weight gain.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore.
Edited to say: I'm 5'2 and 160 pounds.
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