How do you stop eating so much?
I'm obese, and as far as I can remember I always have been. It is going to kill me, and leave my kids without a father. If it doesn't kill me soon it will cost me my career, and I likely won't see my kids graduate school.
My last physical, I was told I'm prediabetic and have high bp. I'm in my 30s. I was told that I could stop it, and change it, and fix it if I started taking it seriously. I was told I would lose my job if I didn't fix things. My doctor sat down in front of me and told me that my kids would grow up without a father I'd I didn't fix things. I haven't done anything, and that was months ago.
I run 5ks, I get exercise, I play sports (well did before covid) but I can't stop stuffing my face. It's not uncommon to eat 8k+ calories a day. I can't stop eating things that I shouldn't, foods that I know/am diagnosed (gluten) make me sick. Every day I wake up and tell myself this is the day I change my life, and I fail. every. single. day. Some days it's without thinking, but most days it's actively sabotaging myself, "fuck it why bother" is an all too familiar refrain.
I don't know why I wrote this, I know there's nothing anyone can do to fix me, except me. I've lurked here for years marvelling in the success of others trying to find inspiration for my own transformation. But if I can't do it for myself, or for my kids after being warned in no uncertain terms by different doctors.
And the familiar refrain pushes its way into my thoughts again, even now. Why bother writing this. Why bother even trying.
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