Ill try not to dig myself a rut as i type this.
18m. Trying to get 10kg off to improve my athletic performance, mindstate, and overall health. Currently 86kg down from 107kg, but i lost that weight a year and a half ago.
I started half way through july but i kept having days of binge eating, and days of fasting for 20 hours. I cannot stick to any goal i set myself. Maybe my goals arent defined enough, and i end up being too hard or too easy on myself.
Im sick of this fat. I started running a couple months ago. Fell in love with it and my performance increased rapidly but i got pretty badly injured 2 days ago so im out of commision for at least a month.
I weight lift almost every day (might take a week or two off here and there) and have for a long time. I just cant stop eating so much food!!
I went to the beach at 6am this morning to get my injured leg some cold water. It was 5 degrees celsius air temp and windy as anything. But even after that challenge i came home and ate 2 sandwiches, a banana, 4 eggs, a HEAP of these almond cocoa coconut fat bombs i made, 1 1/2 chicken breast, a protein shake, and a couple beers. Good nutrition, but just too much food. Eating solely for pleasure.
I have gotten larger over the last couple weeks despite “trying” to lose the fat.
And now im 90% sure i just completely failed my final year of highschool because its moved online from covid! I have no job and no work experience.
I feel hopeless. Not depression, but i can feel myself tip toeing around that abyss.
I know it does not help to feel bad so i will stay as mindful as best i can. Can anyone help me?
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