Hi all, I know you must be tired of seeing this type of post but I gained the weight back. I was a longtime lurker of this group about two years back and managed to lose ~65lbs (5’3, 217-152lbs). I still had weight to lose at my lowest, but I definitely felt great. I liked to take pictures finally, I liked how I was fitting into clothes, and I was truly proud of myself. I was exercising about 5-6 days a week, as I had felt it upon myself to have no “0” days, meaning I wouldn’t have a day where I didn’t do something to make my body feel good; whether that be physically or mentally. I used MyFitnessPal and tracked diligently, and also occasionally made myself sick with not eating enough as I felt light headed and woozy if I were to exercise and eat ~1200 calories. I was also very motivated to lose the weight since I felt like I finally had a chance romantically with a classmate of mine, only to find out he wasn’t interested. During this time of health and fitness, I found swimming and running and the occasional weight lifting session which made me feel healthy and strong.
Then... I graduated from grad school, got a stressful job, moved to a city where I didn’t have any friends, had a huge board exam in February this year, and am constantly put down by my boss. As a result, thr weight started to creep up, like 5-10 lbs from my lowest. Then COVID happened and I think I’ve gained about 15lbs since. I now work from home and have been turning to food for comfort. I have been snacking when I feel frustrated with what I’m doing in my work, and I have begun to turn to food when I am feeling lonely after work. And I look in the mirror and I hate it. I hate the way that my arms/back look, I hate that I don’t have any work pants that fit anymore, and I really don’t want to be the person who once they get back to work everyone else notices how much weight they have gained. Lastly, I live far away from my family and when COVID all clears up I don’t want to be a disappointment to them and show them that I’ve gained the weight back.
I need to get this under control now, but I for some reason don’t have the same drive as before and I don’t know why. I’m at my wits end and could really use some advice or words of encouragement or direction to get myself back on track.
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