This is for me to get honest with myself, and maybe some will relate. I am a female about 20 pounds overweight, 190lbs 5’9”
1) went to a nude beach with friends on a beautiful day in California and couldn’t enjoy it because I was so obsessed with my stomach rolls, my scraping thighs and the fat in my face
2) I met a girl through Tinder and after a few dates we were on the couch and started making out. She is incredibly fit and hot. When she was taking off my shirt I couldn’t enjoy the moment at ALL and was so self conscious
3) When anyone walks in while I’m cooking or eating I feel judged, ashamed, and in turn angry
4) I only fit into two pairs of jeans and when home I only wear sweats
5) I carry a lot of fat in my face and when I lay down my face gets distorted and I have a proper double chin now
6) I am plagued with cravings for sweets and carbs that only get better when I give in
7) my tinder date asked me to pick her up and I said “I’m scared but I’ll try” (which I have ruminated on since) and I could hardly hold her for five seconds even though she’s petite
8) I realize now I am not able to be myself or be present when I am overweight
9) my fully preventable lack of confidence keeps me from embracing moments like these in life and I deserve to shine !!
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/htubhy/personal_and_embarrassing_reasons_why_i_want_to/
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