Can I just start by acknowledging the overwhelming support on this page. I know I didn't reply last night but I read every comment. Each piece of advice helped or guided me in some way.
This kind of support is something I have only imagined, and even though we are strangers, I feel seen and accepted.
Last night was great, in more ways than one.
It started with an NSV! A piece of clothing that has never really fit (muffin top alert) fit me properly for the first time. This, along with the flood of support from you guys, my confidence was soaring.
I did my hair, I put on my favourite earrings (dangly aliens) and my trademark odd shoes. I actually made an effort.
Jump on 2 hours and the garden was busy. Now the party was at my house, so there was an element of comfort there, but I hate small talk, and not really knowing where to stand or what to do with your hands makes my anxiety sky high.
I felt like an alien for the first half of the party and nearly called it a night. But I gradually found my comfort. I remembered why I had felt so confident at the start. I felt better about myself so why not flaunt it.
I HAD ONE PLATE OF FOOD! (Thank you for this advice!)
And you know what, I didn't even eat it all! I waited until I actually felt hungry and then had a look at what was on offer. And when a craving returned, I danced my socks off.
I did drink. I'm not much of a drinker but I was among friends so this seemed to flow with the conversation.
But can I tell you what I discovered, among the anxieties before and the worries in between...I didn't need to stop living to stay alive.
I didn't need to worry about my tomorrow because I knew that my today was okay. I was 'allowed' to have fun. And like many of you amazing people taught me, one day does not define my journey or my future.
I danced with my dad. I tried malibu and coke for the first time. I ate a fairy cake. And I made a new friend.
And this morning, my head was clear. My weigh-in was unaffected. And my outlook on life is forever changed.
I can lose weight and still live.
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source https://www.reddit.com/r/loseit/comments/hljsik/no_rules_no_boundaries_just_living_in_the_moment/
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