20F SW: 71kg (156lbs) CW 57.9kg (127lbs) GW: 57kg (125.6lbs)
You can see I am very lose to my GW. But I feel like I destroyed it all in a weekend. My state has been in COVID lockdown for 4 months and this was the first week out of it. I ate well Saturday during the day but dinner I had a few drinks with friends. Ate lots of fries and even shared a dessert.
Today there was no food in the house and I felt too tired to buy some (I live with my parents btw). They got burgers and fries and I ate some with them. I had half a burger and I binged on at least a large serving of fries. There was also pickles and I BINGED on those. I also ate some coleslaw. I easily ate 1200cal in that one sitting. I feel like nikocado avocado.
I’ve decided I’m going to fast for the rest of the day. I have burned off 800cal on the treadmill. If I’m really hungry I will eat a piece of fruit. I miss lockdown. I miss not having to go out and eat bad food and drink alcohol. My therapist worries I may develop an eating disorder. But being skinny feels so free. Honestly, I can go to the store and try on everything. I look really good in all my outfits. I threw out all my “fat” clothes as I am set on staying this small for life.
Will I be okay? I feel like I’ve lost hard work?
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