How do you reach the point until you've had enough and start to take things seriously? I can blame genetics, I can blame the psych meds, I can blame the birth control, I can find all sorts of excuses to soothe myself with. But that doesn't change the fact that I'm staying within my comfort zone where things are familiar and easy. I drink soda. (diet but still), I eat cake, I eat bread, sugar, occasionally fast food, you name it. I started metformin recently and I know that's needs to be a wake up call for me yet I still eat cake on my break regularly. I snack all throughout the night.The munchies don't help with that one. I don't exercise. I feel smothered in my own body. Every day. I feel disgusting. I'm not proud of how much weight I've gained in the last few years. 60 pounds. I look at old photos and want to be in that place again. Maybe I place too much emphasis on weight in my head. I tried to force myself into the whole "every body is beautiful" thing but it didn't feel genuine to me bc I knew I was lying to myself.
Is reaching that point part of self growth? Is reaching that point truly possible?
Here are my before photos:
F21/5'2/SW: 203 lbs/CW: 203 lbs/GW: 130-140 lbs
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