Getting over the shame

Hello, long time lurker first time poster.

I’m a 34 year old, 5 ft tall woman who has about 120 pounds to lose. I’ve recently realized that while I do overeat, I wasn’t just a lazy pig, I had/have a lot of childhood trauma and unhealthy patterns to unpack, and food was really one of the few happy things in my life growing up repressed and sad in a religious fundamentalist household. I’m working on all of that baggage!

But I’m really struggling with the shame of “I am ruined. I ruined my body. I ruined my life. I had one shot at life, at my youth, at my 20s, and I fucked it up.”

I know i shouldn’t feel that way. I have a husband who adores me, and is always supportive. I’m excited to lose the weight, really excited to feel better, become even more of an outdoors girl, get stronger, become more comfortable on my kayak, not shop in plus size, etc.

Because even when I lose my weight, I won’t be super pretty. I’ll have loose skin, that I’ll probably never be able to afford surgery for. I’ll always carry these awful reminders on my body.

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