About five weeks ago I started my weight loss journey. I began exercising for around 20 minutes a day and trying to eat around 1700 cal daily. At first it was going pretty good and things were fine. In the last five weeks I’ve lost around 11 pounds and an inch off my waist, so I’m definitely making progress.
Then last week something bad happened and my mental health took a deep nose dive. I didn’t work out for four days and severely under-ate on those days since I was mostly just laying in bed. Then after a few days of that I went on a massive binge where I ate around 3500 calories for the first time in months and it just made me feel so terrible and like I fucked up everything I’d done in the past month.
This made my mental health even worse and since then I’ve been in a cycle of eating around 1200 cal a day and being so physically exhausted I can’t work out. It takes most of my energy to get out of bed in the morning. Since I haven’t been working out and I’ve been eating so poorly I know another binge will come in the future but I just feel so overwhelmed trying to track everything and trying to exercise now.
I just feel like I ruined everything by not being able to work out and fucking up how I eat to the point of an eating disorder. I had one in the past (about 5 years ago, and I’ve been in recovery for four years, kind of taking the other extreme and binging) and for the past few days I just feel like I’m slipping back into it again, but I really wanted to try and get my life on track and lose weight the normal way because I always end up gaining it back again after starving myself. I just feel like I messed up so deep by allowing myself a break from working out. I tried to workout the other day and it felt like all my muscles were gone only after a week of no exercise. I just feel like I’m unable to do anything anymore.
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