TLDR: I've been with a coach for almost 4 months, only 3lbs lost. I weigh all food by grams, lift/train 4x week, get 8-10k steps a day, 8-10 hrs sleep a night, drink water, coach initially set macros at 134p, 155c, 54f (1642kcals), currently at 100p, 167c, 54f (1554kcals) because of a breakdown 3 weeks ago. I meet this spot on 95%+ of the time.
Long story - I've always struggled to be the size I want. I've had four babies, and finished the 4th pregnancy 3 lbs above my prepregnancy weight at 151. I still wanted change, so that's when I found Macros and heavy lifting (almost 3 yrs ago). I saw some great measurement changes but the scale didn't budge. Sure, whatever, until the old habits of only caring what the scale said made me determined to lose that last 3 - which is when I entered unsustainable habits. I became lax and gained a couple lbs. Then I got Lyme's disease (2 years ago) and gained 25 lbs. I topped off at 175 when we finally found out what was wrong. I successfully got down to 163 with macros and exercise.
Then COVID happened and I bounced up and down between 163 and 167 all year, until April I just had enough and hired a nutrition macros coach. She put me on macros listed above. I slowly lost 3 lbs but it stopped after about 5 weeks. And nothing since. Nothing. I hit my macros spot on almost every single day. I have only gone over my deficit calories a handful of times. I weigh everything I eat by grams, exercise, get 8-10k steps a day, drink my water, sleep at night. I had a full blown anxiety attack a few weeks ago and my coach and I decided to drop my protein to a more sustainable level for me and I have a lot more energy. Then about a week or so ago we dropped my calories by 100 for the first 2-3 weeks of my cycle and will put them back up during the last week when I get crazy ravenous.
I know I have some wonderful muscle under all this fluff. I have been lifting progressive overload consistently 4x a week for over a year. My weight is going up, so I am gaining strength. But the past four months are breaking me. I am not near what I want to be at and I know that losing fat and weight is how I will get to where I want. I just feel like my body hates me. It doesn't want me to get where I want. It won't listen to science and what is supposed to work. And I'm not willing to do unsustainable or unhealthy things to get there. My emotional and mental health needs food to function.
I don't know exactly why I'm posting other than maybe ideas? Encouragement? Similar stories? Motivation not the give up? I'm just so frustrated and disheartened.
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