Hey there! It’s been some time since my last update. When I (30f, 5’5”) last reported in, I had just reached 150 pounds lost. Since then, I’ve shed an additional 25. More importantly though, I’m finally under 200 lbs.
I cannot remember when I was under 200. It must have been elementary school at the least, 5-6 grade? I was always chubby, but really started ballooning at that time. Partly it was stress from my parents separating, being moved 500 miles to the middle of the desert, and that desert weather preventing me from my usual physical activity. I ate from boredom and ate for comfort. Interestingly, this coincided with my first freedom on the internet, so go figure.
Being under 200 as an adult is bizarre. I’m in this place where I still feel huge and awkward, but I also feel teeny tiny. Sitting in chairs or behind the wheel especially. I wouldn’t change it though.
I started going to a real gym just recently. For the longest time I was uncomfortable with the idea of people looking at me like a spectacle of some kind, but now, even if I’m not as slim as most of the people there, I feel like I’ve earned my place and I deserve to be in their temple of fitness. I belong.
I will never be 375 again. Sometimes I forget how it felt, but other times I remember all too much.
Wish me luck! My next report will be when I hit 175, 200 pounds lost!
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