Around 3-4 years ago I lost 100lbs. I went from 220 to 118 (female, 5’4). At the time I was 22 going on 23. I maintained for a little over a year, then I got pregnant with my first child. Part way through that pregnancy my mom found out she had late stage cancer. I lived with her, so if I wasn’t working I was caring for her, taking her to chemo, doctors appointments, etc. Towards the end I would work my 12 hour shifts at a warehouse then go straight to the hospital until she fell asleep, would go home, wake up at 4am for the next shift, go straight from work to the hospital, rinse repeat. I ended up gaining 80lbs during my pregnancy because I was always eating fast food, gas station snacks or food from the hospital cafeteria, and a lot of it to help cope from stress. She passed right before he was born.
I worked my ass off for the 3/4 months after I had him to get back into shape. I lost 60lbs.
What I didn’t know was that the IUD I got at my 6 week postpartum checkup failed. Needless to say I was pregnant again (my boys are 13 months apart). So, again, upset at the loss of control, I ate. And then I ate some more. And then we were in a pandemic. And so I stayed home. I took care of my first child. And I ate. And by the time my second was here I was 208lbs.
Fast forward to today, four months postpartum. I’m currently at 163lbs, and I would like to lose another 30.
But. It’s. So. Much. Harder.
I’m tired. I’m mad that I have to do this AGAIN. None of my clothes fit. I’m hungry all the time (I’m not breastfeeding and I didn’t breastfeed my first). Most days I can get by on 1400 calories, but I’m salty about it the whole day đŸ˜‚ other days I try to not go above 1700 so that way if I’m not progressing, I’m at least not backtracking. I can’t get a workout in because I can’t go to the gym and I can’t seem to get a home workout in without my one year old or my 4 month old interrupting. My mom obviously isn’t here to help me. My now husband is amazing but works a lot so usually it’s just me with the kiddos from the time we wake up until about an hour before bedtime when he gets home. By then I’m wiped out.
And I know I’m only four months postpartum and I have made progress. I know I’ve been through a lot and I’m also still adjusting to being a mother of two. I know it takes time to find enough balance between parenting and self care, but DAMN the thought of having to work to lose weight again for the third time almost feels impossible!
That being said, is there anyone eating around 1400 who wouldn’t mind sharing what works for them? And if you’ve lost weight, regained a significant amount, then lost it again, do you have any tips for surviving feeling burnt out? I feel like my body has been traumatized by the back and forth and is really fighting me this time around.
Beginning of first pregnancy after maintaining
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