Hey guys!! I’m 19F, weighing approx 260lb. I have been a binge eater since I was 5 years old and have binge ate just about every day of my life. I haven’t exercised since middle school. I’ve always been a bigger person and for the past ten years I have been knee deep in self hatred for myself and my body.
The past six months have been especially bad. I have eaten a lot of shitty, greasy fast food nearly every day for six months. Sometimes multiple times a day. It started to become a routine. About two weeks ago, I binged really hard. If I had to guess, about 6000 calories in a variety of takeout/fast food. The next day my body was so uncomfortable and I realized, I hate feeling this way.
I hate not being able to hike, I hate feeling guilty every single time I eat, I hate abusing my body, I hate that sitting up is a struggle, I hate that I’ve spent my entire conscious life despising myself.
So, for the first time in my life, I got a gym membership. I’ve gone three days in a row so far and spent about an hour to two hours keeping busy. I plan on going 5-6 times a week to get into the routine of it, and build endurance. I’ve made the decision to cut out highly processed fast food and do a 1500 calorie deficit. I hope to do this long term. I need a food scale to do this completely accurately but I can’t afford one currently, so I’ve been recording what I eat on an app. I’m just so happy to have started.
I don’t want to spend my youth hating my body and depriving my body. I deserve to be happy and healthy and it is time to invest in myself.
This is a very big accomplishment to me as I have taken no serious measures to correct my health in my life. I have a good support system, but they do not relate enough to understand the significance of this to me like some of you might.
I’m hoping for support, advice, to hear your stories. Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this.
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