I am 34m will be 35 in a few weeks. This time last year I was in the low 250s for weight, I'm 5'7 by the way. I quit alcohol and used keto and am down to around 165. Also lost my desk job in April due to covid and now do manual work so I am getting stronger, but not really doing any real exercising. Since I see myself and live with myself I don't see the change the way others do. Also I see myself without clothes on lol. A lot of people, even people who could care less about my feelings at the moment say I don't need to lose more weight. I talk about it with my dad who assures me not to listen to them and reminds me of how he used to say since I been overweight my whole life I may be surprised I may have 100 or more pounds to lose. I remember not being able to fathom that whenever he said it in the past. It's funny when these people who say it are a few inches taller than me and weight less or are very muscular.
I always knew I was overweight, the fat kid, and I know it has contributed to who I am today. But I never realized just how big i was. By all means I knew I was fat, but I guess the vision of myself in my head was off somehow. I can't describe it because it's like a face you can't describe, can remember but can't remember lol. With that I never realized just how right my dad was and just how much extra weight I was carrying. I now realize that it's very possible that my best weight, without having to obsess over it, may be in the 150s or even lower. I guess it just sounds so small in today's society. I obviously realize if I get into weight training which I do, that could change things.
One thing about being overweight since a little kid and quickly gaining as you matured, you never have an idea of what the healthy in shape you looks like. You can never say "my goal is to get back to the body I had at whatever age" if the last time you were not fat was 9 years old and were probably obese since middle School. Im sure this plays a huge role in not realizing just how much weight you could stand to lose. I know I have a good amount of muscle to gain and toning up to do, but after losing so much weight I also realize I have more to lose. Like I said, it be different if people saw me with no shirt on lol.
I have also recently noticed a new found respect for just how much my weight held me back. I always knew my weight was pulling me down as I was embarrassed about being fat. But it's like I'm now humbled at how powerful it is, and also can understand and see better why it did. After realizing I was that big, could lose well over 80 lbs and still have more weight to go, it hit me just how unhealthy I was. unfortunately being overweight and unhealthy can make you look unattractive, and hide some of your beautiful features. As well as just ruin the way to carry yourself and was truly meant to do so. I can see why I did not have as many girlfriends, but not in a way of feeling bad for myself but in a totally understand, yea it sucks wish it could have been different,but I see it for what it was type thing.losing the weight helped me respect the truth. I now down feel bad about myself as much for my weight because I know I can control it and have proved it.
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