I feel really ashamed about this and I don’t know where to go from here, or why I can’t seem to fix it myself...
I started losing weight early this year. CICO for the win, I started logging calories and stick to my daily allowance and lost the pounds pretty easily! So far, so great. I thought I finally found the real sustainable way to get healthy, by eating all my favorite foods and fast foods even, and still losing weight. Then, not long after....
I learned to budget my calories, so I could eat lighter meals before one I wanted to splurge on. Nice. Then, I discovered intermittent fasting, and that I could skip breakfast altogether. Great, more calories for the next two meals. Then, I heard people are doing OMAD, no breakfast OR lunch, one huge meal for dinner! Sounded perfect. But....at some point, I couldn’t even hold my appetite for that one meal to the right amount of calories (a whole 1500), and I started eating 2000, even 3000 or more calories. But, I thought, I can just not eat all the next day, and it evens out over two days.... You can see where this is going.
At this point I am maintaining my weight or even losing a little (just 3-4 pounds until I’m a “normal” BMI), but my eating is so extreme. Eat too much, then eat too little or nothing. A giant blow-out binge and then not eat for the next 36 hours. I know this is bad (right?), because I am recently feeling kinda tired, often sick from the giant meals... But at that same time, back when I was eating regular three meals a day, I was always very overweight, so I’m not sure I want to go back to that either...
I just don’t know how to break the cycle. I guess I do know, but I don’t feel capable of stopping the huge binges, and therefore if I don’t even them out later, I’ll just gain the weight back. And I do not want that, either. I always talk myself into it with the calorie calculator in my brain that says 3 days calories is 4500, so who cares if I have that almost all at one time, if the math checks out?
Sorry for the ramble, but does anyone have any suggestions? Knock some sense into me? Thanks.
24F/5’3”/grad student/CW139/SW180
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