I have an odd thing to discuss, and I would love to know others' opinion on this. I really want to lose weight, but I can't imagine myself as someone who's in shape because it has been so long since I was. It just seems so unreal and unattainable. What do you do with this?

If I'm not making sense it's because it doesn't make sense! I'm trying to say it as best as I can.

First off - I know it's not about how you look, but I'm being real here. The number one reason I want to lose weight is because I don't like how I look.

I just turned 27, female, short, and about 50-60lbs overweight. I have been the same weight for the past 10 years, with an exception of a few months when I was 20 and starved myeslf on a ridiculous diet.

I have an "ideal" body in mind, not my own, celebrity bodies. You know how it goes. I grew up with Gossip Girl and Pretty Little Liars and saw 25 year olds play high schoolers and thought "why don't I look like this?!" and here we are!

I have a folder in my phone gallery called "body goal" and there are three women on there. Phoebe Tonkin is one of them. If you don't know her, I'll tell you what she and the others have in common: Skinny. They're slim, almost no boob, and all around the same height. (only a few cm's taller than me)

I want to look like that! I hate my big boobs. I hate my belly. I hate my thighs and my calves.

So I know what I want to look like, I just can't imagine myself in that body and that's terrifying to me and honestly discouraging. I feel like no matter what I'll do, I'll always look bad. I will never achieve the look I want to achieve. I'll never be slim.

I've failed so many times on this journey that I just don't have any faith in myself.

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