In the past year, I've developed a lot of health problems. Heart disease, pre-diabetes, sleep apnea, brain fog, lung disease, pain in my feet, and more. I've felt myself get weaker, fatter, lose my motivation for life, lose my self-confidence, etc. I know all of the risk factors associated with obesity and still I have a hard time doing the obvious, lose the weight, something super simple that we all know how to do... yet it's so difficult for some reason.
For anyone that needs a reminder, obesity affects all of the below, probably some more that I am forgetting:
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It's a big comorbidity in tons of health problems: heart, lung, diabetes, hormonal issues, cancer, sleep apnea, and many others.
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It's linked to lower brain function. We are literally less intelligent when we are fat.
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It affects your libido and ability to perform. It affects your ability to find a partner too.
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It affects how everyone around you perceives you. Everyone, including the legal system, are harsher on obese people whether they are conscious of it or not. Being obese will cost you job opportunities, social opportunities, and affect all of your social interactions.
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It makes everything more physically challenging. It also destroys your joints in the process.
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It lowers your average lifespan significantly.
I've always been down on myself and started putting on weight when I was younger and developed moobs as a teenager even when only slightly overweight which was depressing. In university I developed a permanent skin condition, seborrheic dermatitis, all over my face and scalp that is not treatable so I just went further into misery and completely stopped caring about my weight and physical appearance since there was no winning either way.
When COVID-19 started making the news, I told myself I needed to lose weight because of all the data showing how much worse your chance of survival is if you are overweight, much less morbidly obese. Still, like every time before, I didn't follow through on my own goal. I guess putting my own life at risk due to my food addiction just wasn't enough for me to care after all...
In the past week, I've decided to try doing the Wim Hof Method again, something I've done before that I enjoyed. Then I tried it... and I couldn't take the breaths properly. I literally can't do the WHM because I can't do a simple breathing technique. You literally just sit there and breathe deeply and sharply, and I can't even do that right. That hit me hard, how low can I go before it's too much?
It's not about feeling good, I'm used to the impact of obesity and feeling like crap year long. It's not about looking good, losing weight won't fix my fucked up face and body. At this point I need to lose weight or I will die soon. I'm 320 lbs, 33M, been over 300 for 3 years now and before that I was 250 but at least I was pretty physically active (I just ate like garbage). These days I am anything but physically active + older and the issues are popping up one after another.
If I don't lose weight I may not make it to 35, definitely not to 40. I don't want to die of something as lame as obesity, barely able to live day to day because I'm so fat I can't do anything. I'd rather go out in a more interesting way. At least let me get hit by a train or shot or something if I have to die. At least then I wouldn't have to die in shame.
I'm making this thread for personal accountability. I need to lose 1 lbs every three days until I hit a healthy BMI. I'm going to be doing a full body strength workout 2x a week (Monday and Thursday) and light cardio (walking or recumbent exercise bike) the other days, at least 1 hour. I can't use the excuse that I don't have the time; I have plenty of time to do this, I just need to stop being a lazy fucking bum. I'll also be following a stricter diet, and plan to go vegetarian with a meal plan to fix my awful diet. Finally, I'm considering getting a sauna for the benefits to my heart as they have been shown to lower risk of heart disease which is my highest immediate risk of death right now unless I get COVID.
I can't flop on it this time. My life is still in my hands right now but if I delay any more, it won't be anymore.
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