For the past couple of months, I have been diligently tracking my calories. I kept my exercise regimen, I ate bad food in moderation if I really craved it, and overall I was going on the right track. I saw weight falling off and clothes getting loose. I even started having control on my craving and didn’t act out like an animal whenever I had one.
Until two days ago.
I saw the most BEAUTIFUL brownie recipe I have ever laid my eyes on. The most fudge-y, thicc™️, and gooey brownies. I could not stop thinking about making it. I tried to reason with myself. “If you make that, you WILL end up binging it all in one go. Do NOT do it, syanidesurpise. DONT.”
Unsurprisingly, that went from one ear through the other. I couldn’t resist, and ultimately, I cracked today.
I set on making them in the wee hours of the morning so that no one will be witness to the crime scene of the homicide (browniecide????) that would soon occur in the kitchen in less than 2 hours.
Everything was going well. The brownie batter had a perfect consistency, and no problems happened.
Even then, despite all of my efforts, I ended up burning them. Something went wrong, and by the time I realised that, the brownies were a goner.
Not a single piece could’ve been salvaged. Still, I tried eating a piece just to curb the craving, and MY GOD did they taste horrible. I might have well opted to eat a rock because they were that over baked.
The craving suddenly shrivelled up and died with that tiny piece of brownie that I ate.
I’m honestly so glad this happened, because I knew if I had gotten around baking that brownie, I would’ve eaten the entire tray and probably slip up really badly for a week or two. I would feel bad about myself, binge more, and the cycle repeats. It always happens, so I tend to not put myself in a position where I get sweets or chocolates as they set off something in me and I just stop counting calories and ruin hard earned progress.
My binge wasn’t meant to be, and I am glad that happened, as I can now focus on my journey once again.
Now going back on track lol.
Edit: added a few sentences.
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