Lurker, finally bringing the shame to light.

Yeah, not really shame, except that I’m ashamed of how I’ve been hiding. I’m not ashamed of my body - THERE IS NO WRONG WAY TO HAVE A BODY.

I am obese. I’m an emotional eater, and I have chronic depression (I joke that I was depressed in the womb) for which I take meds that help a lot. It’s not a total remission of symptoms, but it’s ALOT better with the meds.

So, anyway, I eat my feelings, and depression makes sure I have plenty of them.

I’m 52, I’m 5’4”, and I’m at my highest weight - 250. I’m in therapy - again - to deal with depression some more. I have a husband who literally adores me. I have work that I enjoy, and allows me to make a difference.

And I have all the self-discipline of wet cardboard. I’m bored, and I know I’m bored, and I eat because I’m bored anyway. I know what I’m doing and o keep on doing it anyway.

So, anyway - I’m here. I’m facing the problems. And I’m determined to get to a healthy weight.

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