Hello. I am 16F, 5'2, and my highest weight was around 67 kilograms or 147 pounds.
Before anything, i wasn't overweight. I got picked on in school for being even slightly chubby since all the other hirls in school had great figure, so i guess that kinda made me stuck out.
My mom had started doing the keto lifestyle when i was 13, and it influenced my view on carbohydrates alot. She was loosing the weight, and i was only gaining. Eventually, i started following in her foot steo and gradually avoided carbs and ate mostly fatty foods. Then i started obsessing over what i put in my body. No sodium because it'll retain water. No carbohydrates because it'll make you gain weight, no sugar. All that for an extremely young girl who wanted to be skinny.
During the middle of 9th grade, i started emotionally eating. I didn't really think that i was sad at the time for doing so, but looking back i was carrying so many things. The workload for school and projects, having no one to talk to because i did loose my friends the year before, and studying to have good grades. All the pressure and stress from that drove me into a corner. Every after school, we'd drive by convinience stores and i would ask my mom to stop by and that's where i would stock up on food to stuff my fave with. Chocolate bars, cookies, instant noodles, etc. I'd eat those then i'd make dinner in a large amount, and will eat that with half the rice from the rice cooker. Then at midnight, when i'm still awake, and i'd cook noodles and eat it with dumplings till i filled myself up. My family was starting to notice my poor eating habits because we live in a small house and you can hear anyone if they were cooking. Clothes started to feel uncomfortable and for the first time ever, a classmate hugged me and called me a teddy bear. That shit dragged my self-esteem down so much, and i know it was my fault.
I don't wanna make this post longer than it already is so in short, my self-esteem went down as i became noticing the changes in my body a si gained weight and it only made me eat more because it was the only thing i could do at the time. I'd tell myself i'd go back into keto and then fall back shortly after because it wasn't sustainable for me.
Since quarantine started i began changing up my habits. I ate less and only when i began to feel full, i portioned my food, ate so much water and ate on a deficit. I slowly incorporated those in 3 months and i've lost 16 pounds, 8 kilos. I'm going on 4 months but during the middle of the 3rd month, i've hit a plateau and i haven't lost weight in a while. I stand at 131 pounds i think or 59 kilograms. I'm no longer overweight!
My goal weight is to be around 52 kilos, and since i've stopped loosing weight for so long, it's kinda got me down and that's why i'm not eating the best these days. Nonetheless, i am happy that i've understand the balance and learned better and sustainable eating habits. I could not imagine eating the way that i used to. My stomach would explode lol. Anyway, i hope i get to lose a few more pounds because i still feel fat since my weight right now i the weight i maintained through 8th grade and the beginning of 9th grade so i feel like i'm just starting to actually lose weight.
I made this post to feel better during my plateau and also acknowledge the changes i did for my body. I thought i was never gonna overcome bingeing but here i am unable to walk properly when i stuff myself now hahaha.
I don't really know how to end this post so thank you if you read through my story! = )
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